Letting The Lights

Letting The Lights

Alone with my pen & pain

Savouring a silent day

Let me write a harsh part

From my life’s play

I want to do things,

I long for.

Things to which my

talents belong for.

Developing my skills &

running behind the golden crown.

I fail to manage time &

My personal life goes down.

I want to be a good student,

a good player, a good person.

But these efforts make me a

bad lover, bad friend & a bad son.

I work hard all day long

& come back with throbbing veins.

I then crave for people

who may act as quenching rains.

Feeling that, I have someone

to share my sorrows & trouble,

They chide me instead

& my agony is doubled.

They feel that I recall them

Only when I am in need.

But truth is, I have a special place

for each one indeed.

My imbued impatience

comes into my talks

Making me insolent

& putting them in shock.

Broken hearts, Shattered trusts,

When I tend to mend.

Each time I fail because

Time & situations are never my friends.

I want to do good but situations

make my efforts go in vain.

Fading colour of relations with

each tear drop blotting a stain.

Overwhelmed with these vibes,

My heart has become afraid.

Even when I say good, I don't know

why it sounds bad?

How can I concentrate on my

profession with frowning personal life?

This is the reason why

failing has become a rife.

Personal matters hurt more

than the professional pain.

If I cannot share, its useless…

No matter how much I gain.

When I needed a support

in gruesome and despair.

I realised that, the girl I loved

is left alone, far behind somewhere.

People say

“Believe that things will go well”

But its getting worse day by day.

For me to believe on this belief,

I need them to believe on my ways.

I need a hand which could

drag me to a shoulder to lean on.

Someone to laugh with,

Someone to cry upon.

In my room of tormenting darkness,

Came a girl, who did the knock.

‘ Letting The Lights ’ in me

she opened up all the locks.

She is an angel & in my faliures,

She was the only one to join.

Held my hands, kissed my lips

Whenever I failed both sides of the coin

She talked to me with love & solace

and turned my rage into smile.

She was the one who taught me

the biggest lesson, in the meanwhile.

She told me,,

“ Whatever may be the situation

Please smile out without any doubt

Because smile is like a curtain

Shutting things in & Shutting things out ”

-Deepak Kumar Sahu

19/12/2016

01:39:06 AM

Word Meanings

1.Savouring - Enjoying an experience slowly and fully

2. Throbbing - Series of strong and painful beats

3. Crave - Deep desire

4. Quenching - Satisfying the thrist

5. Chide - Speaking angrily to someone

6. Agony - Great Physical or mental pain

7. Imbued - Filled with

8. Insolent - Being rude to someone we ought to be respectful to

9. Mend - To repair

10. Overwhelmed - Filled with an emotion so much that we don't know how to deal with it

11. Vibes - Good or bad atmosphere with a person or in a place

12. Frowning - Facial Expression of being annoyed worried or puzzled.

13. Rife - Common

14. Gruesome - Extremely unpleasant & shocking

15. Despair - Feeling that everything is wrong & that nothing will improve.

16. Tormenting - Mental Suffering

17. Solace - Feeling of comfort that makes you feel less sad